Thanks for being in my memories..

I'm crying as i'm writing this post.

I used to cry for u alot every night.

the fact tat me and u seldom in contact.

I wonder what went wrong?

I soon realize that u contact her back

Forget it. u seems forgotten me.

WHY ? WHY ?

why cant move on ?

still having your damn face in my mind?

i cant stop thinking about u.

really. oh my fucking god.

hard to believe this thing happen

As i remember u said there's no turning back for her

Since she choose zaidi over u.

And u say she is childish n has immature thinking

But what I'm seeing now its U're the one turning back to her.

In silent u are just waiting for them to break off.

So what happened to those day when she is with zaidi?

Who is there for you when U're down?

When U're sick, who actually care for u?

Did u like took me for granted..?

Do u really mean what u say?

Do you really appreciate me?

I'M JUST FAR TOO SPEECHLESS...!!

Now that u have her,

tats why u don mind not having me.

so i wont beg u back either.

since our frehshit is so fragile.

so then forget it.

u're leading ur own sweet life, with her.

i don't wanna bother u again .

since u also never call me or message,

then lets be strangers.

i really hate it to see tings ended up in tis ways.

i still love u, abu , in slient.

this love has never been share with others.

now not even u.

maybe to u, i mean nothing in ur heart.

but clearly i know, in my heart .

no one can ever replace u.

even if i am old, until i die.

ure still in my merories.

i'm hurt deeply now, u just don't care

love is drifting u away from me,

its over, me and you.

impossible , IMPOSSIBLE , impossible .

i realize crying cant release my pain anymore.

my heart's broken , lyk glass .

cant mend agian .

i tink now , i will be like what she did to u before.

Leaving me hanging in the air jus that like.

I don't wanna love someone again.

I too scared..

i hate

broken hearts cant be mend.

My tears drop as I keep thinking of how we used to be. I don't know why my tears drop, but i am sure of something. I was thinking about U. I can't help falling deeper and deeper for u, each time i see ur smile, hear ur voice.every single small tings u do, i would smile. but ever since u turn back to her, u began to fall in love with her, now u're like a total stranger to me. we seems not to know each other. i don't know how to explains this feeling, but for tat seconds, i am really scare. really really scare to lost AGAIN u even u're not mine. Its like I am like suffering from relationship problem. We were just friends but its just that couldn't let go of u. We did everything..I miss the u hug me,the way u kiss my lips. We shared every secret together. I sacrifice everything for u. i know its not worthy doing all this for the sake of someone who doesn't love u at all. but i cant help falling for u, maybe its time to move on and let go. can someone teach me how to be a women ? i didn't really want to think about u i just couldn't help it. sometimes I ask her how are u? are u sleeping well? eating fine? wad are u doing? i really hope u're fine there. although i'm letting u go,my hearts just couldn't bear to do so but i will be there for u always dropping a sms by hoping tat u're fine but it seems hard for me to click send . i will pretend not knowing anything. i know u well. i know u wont drop me a sms either when all of ur mind is think about her. so i am like wasting my time hoping for anything!

I see your face in my mind as U walked away

'Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way

People are people.

And sometimes we change our minds

But it's killing me to see you go after all this time

Music starts playing like the end of a sad movie

It's the kind of ending I don't really want to see

'Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring me down

Now I don't know what to be without you around

And we know it's never simple, never easy

Never a clean break, no one here to save me

You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

And I can't breathe without you,

but I have to Breathe without you,

but I have too...

Never wanted this, never want to see myself hurt

Every little bump in the road

I tried to swerve

People are people and sometimes it doesn't work out

Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out

And we know it's never simple, never easy

Never a clean break, no one here to save me

You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

And I can't breathe without you, but I have to

Breathe without you, but I have to

It's like I just lost a friend

Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me

It's like I just lost a friend

Hope you know this ain't easy, easy for me

And we know it's never simple, never easy

Never a clean break, no one here to save me

OhI can't breathe without you, but I have to

Breathe without you, but I have to

Breathe without you, but I have to

Ohhhh Abu I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry...

I'M DOING THIS FOR HER & U..!.

U're happily chatting with her on phone now while i'm crying alone in my room.

ur life is fine now, i don't wanna mess his life again .

i know me and u are impossible.

i am trying real hard to forget about u ,

i still cant bear to delete those msg we used to share.

looking at those msg it still makes me wanna drop a tear.

but i promise myself tat i wanna learn to be brave.

i don't wanna cry over u again .

and i wanna move on to a better life.

i haven been moving on , have u ?

i bet in ur life,don even have me.

u don't even rmb me, and those msg u must have deleted too.

but i can understand y.

u just don have the feeling that i have towards u .

thank you for being not once but TWICE in my memories.

because of u, makes me stand up for my rightness.

makes me began to love to be alone.

tats u, and y i love u .

farewell my used to be close fren ?

i'll forever rmb u , and u'll forever be in my life.

never gonna forget u .

and i really do miss u alot.

until now, i still miss u.

shed tears for u.

tinking of u at late nite.

i still love u.

but i already lose the courage to contact u,

i am no special to u.

thank you.

did u ever even once miss my msg to u ?

i don tink u will .

Take good care of yourself when I'm not around anymore.. Cause I know she'll make you smile, and your love for her will never ever fade...I wish all the best for you... Deeply in my heart i love u... Thanks for everything Abu.....